~*~ lil emo world of z ~*~

I went down to the river,
I set down on the bank.
I tried to think but couldn’t,
So I jumped in and sank.

I came up once and hollered!
I came up twice and cried!
If that water hadn’t a-been so cold
I might’ve sunk and died.

But it was Cold in that water! It was cold!

I took the elevator
Sixteen floors above the ground.
I thought about my baby
And thought I would jump down.

I stood there and I hollered!
I stood there and I cried!
If it hadn’t a-been so high
I might’ve jumped and died.

But it was High up there! It was high!

So since I’m still here livin’,
I guess I will live on.
I could’ve died for love–
But for livin’ I was born

Though you may hear me holler,
And you may see me cry–
I’ll be dogged, sweet baby,
If you gonna see me die.

Life is fine! Fine as wine! Life is fine!

by

Langston Hughes

I used this poem in one of my poetry projects last year.   I didn’t remember the exact reason why I picked it but I liked it from the beginning.  So I thought it’d be nice if I share it with you since I had nothing to do and was bored.  

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!  Finally, I’ve got a chance to say it LOUD!  Yeah..today was the last day of school…and now I’m officially off from school for 2 weeks! However, I don’t think it is going to be fun since I’ve got some works to do.  My Spanish teacher wouldn’t leave me alone and let me have fun even in the break.  She gave us a take home test, which is 53 pages long, to finish up during the break!  I’m not trying to make it that awful. But, what are we supposed to do in the holidays?  Hello…we’re off to REST..not to work!  And guess what? A week after we go back to school, we’ll have to take the ACP exams.  Then what? TAKS [the Texas Essential Knowledge and Skills] Tests?  OMG…I’m such a loser, having endless things to complain. 

Nonetheless, on the bright side, I don’t have to get up early in the mornings, which means, I can stay up late at nights after all.  Plus, I can get online and chat with my buddies as I used to.  And I’m hoping to gain some weight during the break [lolz..I'm tired of being skinny].   

Ok then, I’ll just stop here.

Wish you have a very merry christmas and a happy new year!

So, what had happened was…we went to the Childern Medical Center to volunteer yesterday.  But seeing lots of sick kids made me sad.   However, I felt glad that I’ve got a chance to play with them to make them feel comfortable for a moment.  Guess what? I even drew a mickey mouse on a sheet of paper and wished them a happy thanksgiving!  yayy Me..lol =P 

The time we got out of the Hospital was like 8 p.m.  But, it was really dark outsite and  so darn cold.  Even though I had a jacket on, I was freezing to death [especially when the wind brew].  But thanks T.K. for hugged me for a moment to make me warm while we were waiting for the darn bus to come.

T. K was my spanish teacher.  I had her last year.  She’s really cool and I had fun having her class.   Plus, she is our one of the head leaders of the Link Crew - the team/program which was formed to welcome and help out the freshmen throughout their 1st year of high school.  Guess what? I am one of the link leaders =] 

O.K. back to the way back home. lolz…yeah…it was really really really cold.  Even though I had to suffer a little bit, I guess I had a good time to helped out my team and volunteered.  Plus, thanks Ma Lin for helped me figure out the time, came by my home, and accompanied me on the way.  Also, thanks Jamie for asking me too much questions and narrating everything I did..lol..at least, you made me laugh and I wasn’t bored! =]

This is one of the most beautiful and meaningful songs that I’ve ever heard in my life.  For some reasons whenever I listen to it, I sink down to the emotions that I keep inside of me. I never get tired of it.  I just don’t know why.  It just keeps me hoping, dreaming, and wishing for something.  Something that I’ve ever wanted to be happened.  Something that would make me feel wonderful.  Something that…….

Oh well…Whatever!   

Here goes the song that I am talking about.  By the way, it’s a song of the band named the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (one of my favorites).

"Your Guardian Angel"

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can’t replace
And now that I’m strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I’ll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It’s okay. It’s okay. It’s okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I’ll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you’re my, you’re my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don’t throw that away
Cuz I’m here for you
Please don’t walk away and
Please tell me you’ll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I’ll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

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   It’s been like forever that I haven’t updated my blog.  Life’s getting harder and busier as I get older.  Oh well…Life’s like that. 

   Plus, being a student isn’t simple and easy as it sounds.  I’m tighten up with all those works and duties; to get the homework done on time; to study for the test/quiz tomorrow; blah blah blah…

   The worst thing is that I have to get up early in the mornings, every weekday. I know the time I get up is not that early for some of you but still, 7:30 is early for me.  Since I don’t usually go to bed early at nights, it’s really hard for me to get up and drag this skinny body outta bed.  LOL.  Perhaps, this is one thing I don’t like about being a student. 

   There is also another thing I hate being a student this year because I have to take this freakin’ stupid U.S. History class.  I’m not that smart at history and stuff, so I struggle a lot in that class.  I’m most likey to be lost if I wouldn’t pay so much attention to the teacher.  It’s just not my thing!  But, who’s to blame?  This is life…this is my freakin’ life….like it or not…I have to live it!  That’s the way it is.  So yeah…my life’s like this!

I was kinda busy and of course lazy to update my blog for awhile.  Now I updated it! yayyyy…

How does it look now?  nice…huh? lol

Well…I don’t have anything to post on my blog right now….can’t think of anything right away…I’ll post and share things later on….bye for now…

xoxo,

me

    I’d like to apologize you guys for annoying so much with my blog updated mails sent to your inboxs!  I didn’t mean to do that but as y’all know those were automatically sent to you from the friendster service if you chose to receive notifications.  Sometimes it bothers me a lot too.  So, I’m sorry.  Hope y’all didn’t hate me for that! lolz

PEACE!

xoxo,

~*~angelic-devil~*~

     I read this article in Seventeen Magazine just a few days ago…and I thought it’ll be great to share it with you guys….It’s mainly about Rumors and Gossips.

     Okie…here it goes…..

"Rumors don’t just damage reputations—they can leave emotional scars too." - Holly Eagleson

THE REAL IMPACT OF GOSSIP

Being talked about can be so hurtful.  Here’s why.

1. Shame:  Even if the rumors aren’t true, the victim may not be able to live them down for  years.  And if they happen to be spread online to even more people, the pain will not be magnified.
2. Ostracism: Gossip can totally distort other people’s views of the victim.  So even if you know that you should take a rumor with a grain of salt, others may believe it’s true–and snub of abuse the person as a result.
3. Embarrassment: The victim can feel violated that someone betrayed her trust–and humiliated that everyone knows her bussiness.  It’s hard to regain a sense of confidence if you know people are talking about you.

BREAK THE HABIT

if you gossip, this is how to quit!

1. Stop and think:  The next time you hear a juicy rumor that you’re tempted to pass along, ask yourself, Is it true?  Could it hurt someone if I repeated it?  Just remembering the consequences is a powerful incentive to zip your lips.
2. Speak up: When you’re around other people who are gossipoing, do the right thing.  Tell them, "It’s not fair to talk about someone unless we were there–how do we know what really happened?"
3. Make amends: If you get caught spreading mean stuff, be brave and apologize to the victim’s face.  Just say "I’m so sorry I hurt you–I didn’t mean to get caught up in the drama."  She’ll feel less alone.

     Well….you don’t like to be a victim of something bad…so…why let yourself to be a creator of that something bad?  Right?  So, have a sympathy for someone! 

Spread the love!

    The only way to truly balance out the negative things we dish about is to say something positive—and hope it spreads just as fast!  Every time you hear something mean, say something nice about a person!

     Okie dokie….I hope you get something good out of it!

Peace!

xoxo,

~*~angelic-devil~*~

"If I Never Knew You"

And if I never knew you
If I never knew you
I’d have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky
Never knowing why
Lost forever
If I never knew you
If I never knew you (oh)
If I never knew you

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I love this song because it’s meaningful and true to me.  Yeah….if I never knew you….I’d never know what love is like or how wonderful to be loved! You’ve shared everything with me, no matter it’s laughter or tear!  You lift me up whenever I was down!  You supported me whenever I needed somebody!  You were the one who was always there for me when no one else could!  You were the one who cared every little thing about me!  You were the one who understood me the most and never got away from me!  No matter what I did, no matter how I forgot about you, no matter what I said, you were the one who treated me with the patient no one else could had!  And of course, you were the one who made my life so wonderful!!! Therefore,  I’m so lucky to have you and wish I could keep you in my life forever!!!  I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

P.S:  "YOU" means my beloved BF and BFF!!!

Since I never invited you to come into my life….

I’d never request you to leave….

But….

One day, if you ever decide to walk away from me….

Make sure that you’d never turn around and come back to me again…

Because……

Even if the wound is healed and the pain is gone….

The scare of that wound will be left there forever!